bridesmaid cards

Guess i'm really good in keeping things under wraps hehehe.

i've been planning for the past month on doing a bridesmaid card for my ladies (inspired by Once Wed) and have been working on it ever since. i DID procrastinate on it for quite awhile but alas, i've gotten it done!

first and foremost, OF COS it can't possibly be a direct replica of what you see on the net. customisation is always needed to make it special. like i've said, i'm inspired by the idea but that's as far as it goes!

found a nice poem from another template website and thought it's pretty cool.

apart from making a card just to satisfy my itchy crafty fingers to diy something or ANYTHING (finding excuses for myself), i wonder what was the point of me doing these cards & why.

then i've realised & decided why.

1) momento that's one of a kind
2) to show how thankful i am
3) i bet they'll be surprised!

i visited POPULAR bookstore and stood at the cards section for ages. good thing i've decided not to bring wilson along or he would've been bored waiting for me to take my pick (as usual!).

since the bridesmaid dresses are gonna be champagne gold in colour, it's an obvious pick for my paper colour.

the $2 cutting board & $2 craft knife from DAISO came in handy.

i was slowly preparing the paper cutouts over the past few weeks - it took me quite a while since i had to make four sets of everything.

i used photoshop to design the look for the cards. worked on it for a few hours and finally, i finalised on something and found good fonts to go with it.

these are test prints. ink smeared a little as the inkjet don't work too well on uneven paper surfaces. i switched to a smoother paper surface later and the result was great.

preview of that paper-cut outs. as you can see, hairstyles are designed to resemble the ladies themselves. i scribbed their names on each of their own cut-outs.

packaging it for the final look. there's not mistake in identifying which card is meant for who cos it's specially made for YOU!

a personal belief: details must be perfected to even the very last bit. the name and address is the first thing ANYONE sees when they receive a letter. if you wanna do a job, u gotta do it right. took me 20 minutes to scribble on the envelopes as i tried to replicate the font used in the cards. then again, using the SAME font for everything is a bit of an over-kill so i kept to a simpler handwriting for the addresses.

煩

現在內心里的煩躁快憋得我喘不過氣
為人子女就不能我行我素嗎?
自我意願和理當該有的"孝心"讓我左右為難
總而言之...就是煩。

被自己的心情左右的我也很懊惱
早上起來原本好好的,干嘛非得來壞我事!!!

post-photography emotions

anticipation. worry. stress. regret.

post-photography thoughts

seems like 3 out of 4 of the emotions i'm feeling are a little more towards the negative realm but i guess that's expected since i'm such a pessimist.

anticipation is self-explanatory. i haven't seen the result of my pre-wedding photoshoot. wilson & i have arranged an appointment with Sattine to view our photos on the 26th of March. I expected a later date but since they are so efficient about it, that's good too.

worry is self-explanatory too since i worry about the how the pictures will turn out. will it be what i like? because when i dislike something, especially photos, it can be quite lethal. i wasn't too fond of the final hairstyle i had for my outdoor shoot. the hair is fine but the fringe is set too high. i felt.. a little old in it. the only positive thing i can think about it was the fact that i sweat like mad for my outdoor shoot, the backcombed fringe was a blessing in disguise. imagine having my fringe stuck to my forehead. the two of us ran out of ideas for poses & i must admit, due to the lack of experience with photoshoots, we weren't very relaxed about it and as much as we asked for less "pose-y" shots, we posed alot (not looking @ the camera of course). i think my photographer quite poor thing. supposed to be us 'free-styling' end up he had to keep directing us two goondus.

"wilson, look @ ur wife!"
"maria, look outside window pls!"
"like that fake liao!!"

i think the classic line i keep hearing is "like that fake liao!!" spoken in chinese with a bit of a malaysian accent. but i'm grateful for that line because it was meant to 'warn' us that we're becoming too pose-y so that we can adjust our behaviour accordingly.

can't believe how much i sweat once we went outdoors & it wasn't extremely hot or something. i just kept sweating profusely. luckily mom made me bring a hand towel. it was super useful & caked with my make-up @ the end of the shoot.

i must pray very hard that our pictures turn out great.

i wanted a more relaxed, hanging out kinda shots but i guess that didn't happen. with the gowns, the mood is a little weird.

and one very important thing i failed to realise till on the day itself. MUSIC PLAYED ON SET IS VERY IMPORTANT. it sets the mood and i prefered a light-hearted cheerful mood and the 'classic love song' kinda music usually makes me more sleepy than anything else. i should've brought my own CD. damnit!!!!!!!!

my photographer did show me a few photos lah. and those he showed me were not bad. wilson said that he was shown more pictures while i was changing into my gowns. he liked the photos but i tend to be much more demanding when it comes to photos so... very hard to discern based on his feedback also. sigh.

stress...... is linked to all of the above.

as for regrets.... alot la. the fringe lo. never bring my own music lo. we too stiff lo. never do enough 'homework' on how to strike poses lo. never ask wilson everyday train how to pose lo so end up i keep threatening to scratch his face when he tried kissing me again (he kissed me like a thousand times). imagine all the photos are kissing ones. crazy meh!?

i think that only thing sustaining me and made my day was wilson's breathless look and gasp that escaped his mouth when i changed into my march-in wedding day gown. that was the only time i ever got such a reaction from him (very drama) and he kept telling me how pretty i looked. I guess a woman must AT LEAST manage a "breathless gasp" once in her lifetime from her husband - especially in wedding gown!!

unexpected incidents

when we were out at Alexander Park, the first location for our outdoor shoot, towards the end of our shoot it actually started to drizzle. very light drizzle but a drizzle nonetheless. we made our quick escape into the car and drove to the next destination. in the car i was wondering whether we would be able to continue with the photoshoot since our next location is the sand playground at Labrador Park. strange enough, the drizzle stopped and hardly had any impact because the ground wasn't even wet.

SO...what's so "unexpected" about this?

well... the impact of the drizzle... was not on the ground.. but the SKIES! It had a marbled hue of orange turning into greyish blue.

so for silhouette shots by the SEA, the result was pretty awesome. my photographer showed me one picture.

we managed a pose with my amigurumi cows too! saw the pictures & it looked damn cute.

at the end of it all

my bridal package offers me a selection of 40 photos, 28 pages. i need to 'strategically' plan my selection man!!! i realised just 1 outdoor gown i've had a sunflower/alexander park shoot, playground/labrador park shoot, maze/labrador park shoot, sea/amigurumi/labrador park shoot... that's 4!!!

too much to think. brain pain.

worries

i am suddenly plagued with negative worries about my wedding and how it'll turn out. to admit truthfully, it is not exactly what i want but a situation of what i can manage out of our tight budget as well as...well, we live in Singapore. Having said so, it means I don't live or have access to some countryside with picturesque view (imagine a starry night!) or a cute barn or whatever.

everything cost money. sigh.

love the letterpressed wedding invitations from Bella Figura but expensive.
love the cosy warm kinda wedding but have too many people i wanna include.
i also don't have a whole team of people on standby to help decorate/prepare things because everyone needs to work and i'm the only crafty one in the family.

I wanted to DIY as much as I could but there's a limit to what I can do and with almost 300 guests (would've been 250 if not for some circumstances...), i can't get myself too carried away ie. DIY wedding favors, or it's like killing myself with all the workload. But i DID manage to finish DIY-ing my guestbooks (1st one was fantastic! 2nd one.. well.. freak accidents do happen). Then I DIY-ed my personal wedding dolls which turned out fantastic.

Now i'm fretting over other stuff like bridesmaid accessories, my ladies are still scouting for their dresses, my dinner table centre-pieces, the settings, invitation cards (whether the hotel's one gonna look like shit..), ROM function room decor, wedding montage... (shit i forgot abt the montage)... good gracious. i think i'm better at this when i'm helping others to plan than planning for myself.

once i sat down infront of my pc many moons ago and started typing out the names of the people i wanna invite to my wedding... i kinda got a shock. didn't realise i have that many friends & each of them are special to me in some way of another & to think that i'm not even extending my invitations to people who's not close to me.

i wanted a very opaque light pastel colour, clean whitish sorta feel but somehow... i don't think that's how it's gonna turn out because now that i think about it, my ballroom is quite.... warm glowing in colour setting.

i think i'm just freaking myself out.

my wedding bands are up for collection tomorrow afternoon. i'm very nervous. like i've said, we were willing to spend a little more than what we initially preferred for a pair of customised ring. we love our idea and has not regretted our choices ever since even though we occasionally walked into other jewellery stores to take a look but it only made us feel reassured about our decision. however, my ring is very simple so unlike eternity rings or half eternity rings where blings would outline the ring's surface, my single 0.03 bling is kept inside. same goes for wilson's ring.

my pre-wedding shoot is on monday i feel like a nervous wreck. there's still some minor adjustments to my dresses (and now i'm starting to wonder if i have too many of them) and although my coordinator assures me that all is in good hands and monday when i arrive, everything will be ready... not having worn the FINAL FINAL version makes my blood pressure rise a little & IF... just IF anything is less than perfect on Monday... i think i'll turn into a full-fledge Bridezilla.

we've chatted with our pre-wedding photographer, Yean, & my make-up artist, Jessie.

They are really nice people and Yean seems to think on the same page as us in terms of how we would prefer our styles for photo-taking to be. i obviously can see how he has alot of his 'principles' on how things should be and what kind of attitude a photographer should hold. in fact everything he says is what i can agree with and they are like 'model answers'. I would love to trust him explicitly but... well, i'm just being me. unless they earn my trust (means after i use their services), it's very hard for me to be too trusting because the greater the trust makes the fall harder to bear.

argh. i need tranquilizers.

parents-woes

sometimes.... my parents drive me insane.
sometimes.... it's infuriating to witness quarrels where you CLEARLY know it could be resolved if only they could've chosen to look at the solution TOGETHER and not dwelve at the problem. seriously, it takes two hands to clap. it irritates the crap out of me to know how an issue could be easily solved IF ONLY both parties were willing to be a bit more considerate/sensitive towards each other, think not just for themselves but also also to consider the issue by putting themselves into the shoes of their partner. alot could be understood and solved amicably. but more than often, many choose not to do so and it irritates the hell out of me cos i can't stand such things. to me, it's plain stupid. it's frustrating cos i know what could've been done to solve the prob but thing is, I'M NOT THE ONE INVOLVED! it's these.. 'other people'. and seeing how they are not doing things right when they could and somehow cleverly choose to plunge deeper and deeper into the black hole while digging each others' hearts out.. geez.

feeling healthy

i was out on my jogging regiment with wilson last night.
managed to escape twice but this time i can't escape no more. bleh

and so i brought along my new ipod nano (wilson gimme! muahaha) of which i stored with all my japanese songs to purge my mind from "evil tots" to give up halfway thro my jog.

we're all geared up and we went jogging and with my new knowledge on how to 'breathe' correctly, i'm seriously SERIOUSLY surprised with the result. previously i kinda screwed up and got tired out really fast because: i wasn't able to regulate my breathing properly, i wasn't jogging in the correct way, my knee came up too high, wilson was running off at a faster pace sending me off in a panic attack to catch up.....yea. so plenty of problems previously. but now they've been corrected and things turned out PERFECT! WOO!

i more than just doubled the distance i covered in my previous jog and i was able to complete a thro n fro trail wilson planned out for me! and i managed to surprise him more and he was giving me plenty of raised eyebrow and thumbs-up but i was either too busy 'regulating my breath' (when jogging back) or 'catching my breath' (finishing the jog) so i practically ignored him for a good 10 minutes even after we completed the jog. LOL

he kept making me drink 100 plus though.

so i feel a great sense of achievement having worked my lazy ass.

one more surprise is that my thigh muscles didn't ache.
previously, i felt like a granny who couldn't bend her knees enough to get down the steps properly. it was horrible.

so hopefully i can keep up with routine of jogging every Wednesday and Sunday night. take the chance to lose some fats, keep fit, build up good metabolism and trim/tone my thighs.

i realise i've got a smaller butt now. my ass is disappearing.

was 'examining' my arms last night with wilson. been doing mini push-ups on a dailiy basis for more than a month now. i can actually see the results now? like more toned, visible muscles, slimmer (surprise surprise)! my abs are showing up as well. so i guess it feels very rewarding to exercise regularly and keep fit.

not sure if it's enough to make me wanna turn into a exercise buff but for a start, i like the 'results'. heh

realise how exercise is really, on a fairly large part, linked to 'mind-over-body'? tests your determination and perserverance. not easy to be disciplined enough to continue. not easy to be disciplined enough to not indulge in food. sigh.

bagels

damn. caught myself eating toasted bagels with thick creamy cheese spread. how indulgent. how sinful.

now that's extra 5 crunches per set for tonight's workout.

*continues chewing on bagel*

time for thanks

after having read through Ranna's blog, i realised i hardly blogged about my wedding preparations until recently.

i'm probably too quiet about it. disclosing this matter only to a selected few.

but while i was chatting with iman i realised something very important.
i think i'm seriously blessed.

why so?

because of all the help and advices i get from those around me and miraculously, the 'right' information somehow finds it way into my lap whenever i need it or when i'm at my wit's end. as always, looking at the bright side of things make me more appreciative of the help i receive and disregard the troubles i've encountered.

choosing a hotel venue, choosing a bridal package, researching online, scouring thro the forum for reviews was a pain in the ass. i hate bargaining yet this was what i needed to do to make sure everything goes well for our wedding.

i don't accept compromising anything for my wedding.

having said so doesn't mean i want everything to be the BEST. it only meant that i will not settle for anything less than what my heart tells me i should get. if i don't feel right, i shouldn't allow myself to accept it. instead, i have to steel myself to walk away to look for alternative. in fact, by doing so, i usually end up with better deals. :)

Hotel



i fell in love with Holiday Inn's Crystal ballroom when i attended Jamesy's wedding 2 years ago. 2 years later the moment i step back in, i fell in love with it all over again and in my heart i've already decided, i want this location to be our wedding venue. i've probably secretly made that decision when i first stepped into the ballroom 2 years ago.

lucky for us there was a pre-renovation promotion going on at that time and the timing couldn't be any better for us! i was near devastation when i was told that the dates we wanted weren't available but somehow lady luck took pity on us and gave us a glimpse of hope. one of the couple have not confirmed their banquet and by paying for the deposit before them, we managed to get the date we wanted! great news.

Bridal shop
finding the right bridal shop was a pain in the ass. lucky for me i had Immy back just in time for her holidays and she could accompany me around. it wasn't easy to find the right shop and many left me with a bad feeling. something always didn't feel right. either the gowns weren't right, or the package is too .. disadvantageous or even outrageous, or the photography sucked. i remember telling one of the lady that the only prob i have with their shop is i don't like the work of their designer. surprisingly enough i realised how one of my secondary school classmate has become a designer for bridal gowns.

wilson have been very nice to accompany me whenever he could or to discuss with me about our wedding preparations whenever he could. men usually can't be bothered so i can't say he is full of zeal to find out alot, at least he wasn't slacking lol.

Wedding Bands
With Lijun's introduction, we found Fairy's Inc and Sandra, the lady who served us, was very professional and helpful. We felt great there and like their services and their designs (of course) so eventually, we decided to have our wedding bands custom-made there. Made several trips down to their shop for discussion but yesterday, we've finally gone for the final round of ring fitting and decided on our engravings. i was upset over some font type stuff but anyway, that has been settled. i can't wait till march to see our completed rings!

Amigurumi cows
kudos to Ranna for the idea and i'm glad finished crocheting the two amigurumi cow of our cow tales!!!! now we're in the midst of preparing their accessories and photoshoot and stuff. i will hold on to the details for now and updates will be revealed later. :D

Music selection
this will be magical of course hehehe cos CL and I have something unusual up our sleeves. not your typical wedding love songs of course.

upcoming headaches
- i still have a photo montage to create.
- trial make up to go for
- buy bridal heels
- my pre-wedding photoshoot!!!
- booking for a JP; i called mrs chia. she say it's still too early but she'll take note of my date.
- e-file notice of marriage online; have to wait til june
- finalise guest list (more or less finalised)
- food tasting
- buy guo da li stuff.
- settle my bridesmaids' dresses/bestmen's suits
- vet thro emcees' scripts
- prepare my own script

wah lau.
sian.

daily musings: mom & dad

crunch crunch coco crunch

3 sets of 30 crunches on a daily basis, 2 sets of 30 push-ups on a daily basis, soon wilson will be adding 2 days of jogging on a weekly basis to my workout routines.

i've never felt so... healthy. at least not since my bras basah days.

i've lowered my body fat % and lost a kilo plus in 3 weeks and toned up my body. result is surprisingly obvious from the photos i took during gown fitting. hope i can keep it up.

i've also started eating gingko biloba + DHA supplements to improve my ailing brain cells that's as forgetful as a 60 year old.

i've finally finished my degree. that's good news i suppose. am i going for the graduation trip? i don't know. i'm trying not to think about it now.

after some googling done, i've also come to realise how my unhealthy lifestyle have contributed to my ailing metabolism and learnt about the kinda food to eat that can help burn more body fats. interesting stuff. strawberries. like wow.

so my amigurumi cows are done as well. can't wait for its photoshoot!

and since we're all stepping into 2010 right now, hope life won't be such a bitch to everyone and we can breathe alot easier and stay happy.

frankly i feel like gorging myself with japanese rice and lotsa meat right now but i think i just have to sleep my cravings away. i'll boil some brussel sprouts to distract myself tomorrow morning.

popping by

2 more days & it would've been exactly 3 mths since i last blogged.
kinda got myself so caught up in living out my daily routines that i forgot i even had a blog.

planning for my big day has been hectic and rather troublesome.
but as the day goes by with more and more decisions being made each day for the preparation of it,
it's somewhat exciting yet nerve-wrecking for me.
being such a control freak, i anticipate the end result but being paranoid as usual, i fear for hiccups. it's a rollercoaster ride for my emotions. but i'm glad somehow that no matter what it is, i have people whom i can ask advice from and friends offering their help in every possible way.

many say, wedding is about the couple. but i say, it's through the preparation of it where you'll get to see who shares your joy and every ounce of it is instilled into making things work.

i am clearly aware how a 'wedding' or 'being married' is not the 'final destination'. it's more like a milestone. a start for a new phase of my life.

as usual, instead of harping on the bad (i forgot what's bad hah!), i rather harp on the good/blessings i received.

• i had gu with me all the way altho i'm told how men usually can't be bothered
• i had iman to help me with the bridal shop scouting and wedding band scouting (lucky me!)
• ching to help with the planning & music list
• lijun offering to help me my MUA for mom/sisters but too bad our dates clashed
• Ranna with all the guo-lai-ren advises (can't say how grateful i am)
• two hansum man agreeing to help emcee
• dear couz who shares my excitement & agreed to help jaga guest list & open car door
• feng n YL agreeing to be my sisters
• Ben agreeing to help come along with me to describe what i want for my photoshoot & asking around for cheaper instax film px & imparting gu knowledge on wine choices
• HL agreeing to be bouncer for my album during AD....
• & of course not forgetting dearest mom & dad.

i'm blessed with the help from so many lah. aiyo. can't complain. :)

so far i think i have half my checklist completed:

18 mths before...

• Set wedding dates. Checked! Date is on 12 Sept 2010, Sunday
• Prepare guest list. Checked!
• Book venue. Checked!
• Keep reference folder to file away ideas. Checked!
• Keep a separate file for payments & receipts. Checked!
• Book bridal package. Checked!

12 months before...

• Place order for wedding bands. Checked!
• Select bridal attendants & assign roles. Checked!

stuff that's still pending:

9 months to go...(December 2009)

• Book JP
• Book ROM date
• Discuss menu. Set date for food tasting.
• Plan music selection (finalize song list with chingling)
• Shop for bridesmaids'/groomsmen's outfits, my bridal accessories e.g. heels & jewelleries etc
• Review guest list
• Enquire about bridal car rental
• Discuss different looks with hair & makeup artists and go for trials. Confirm looks.

6 months to go...(March 2010)

• Confirm music list, menu & liqour list
• Pre-Wedding photoshoot.
• Collection of wedding bands

3 months to go...(June 2010)

• Finalise guest list & start planning seating arrangements
• Confirm transportation
• Send reminders for venues & solemnisation officiant
• Confirm all wedding decor ideas, bouquets, centerpieces
• Send out invitations for out-of-town guests

2 months to go...(July 2010)

• Send out local invitations
• Confirm out-of-town guests have received invitations
• Choose thank you gifts for attendants
• Organise seating arrangements

1 month to go...(August 2010)

• Chase late RSVPs, finalise guest list & seating arrangements
• Confirmation of gowns & bridesmaids' gown to be ready on time
• Prepare fees / angpows where applicable, e.g. officiant, bridesmaids/groomsmen
• Start breaking in your shoes so they won't pinch on the day
• Confirm all other arrangements that has not been finalised.
• Start planning emcee script. To share schedule with them.

2 weeks to go...(late August 2010)

• Collect dresses
• Arrange for bridal flowers to be sent to my house early on the day.
• Go thro emcee's script. Prepare our own wedding speech.

1 week to go...(Early Sept 2010)

• Finalise all minor arrangements that hasn't been done.
• Arrange for a bridesmaid to accompany me and help me on the day
• Give all payments to bestman; leave him to pay the respective people.

On the day (12 Sept 2010)

• Let chief bridesmaid take charge of everything which includes reminding the other attendants of their duties.

brain has gone for a smoke break

How to know when ur brain is sorta 'dead' after working too hard?

you...walk out of the house carrying ur bag n wonders why it is so light.
you...cont to walk while wondering why ur bag is so light.
you...walk across the marketplace, the fruitstall, the dentist, the overhead bridge like a zombie.
you...sit down at the bus stop and stone.
you...then start to wonder again why ur bag is so light.
you...open ur bag and to ur horror, realise u forgot to bring ur wallet & keys out.
you...sit n stone for 5 seconds contemplating whether to fuck it and go to work as it is.

(pause)

*quite obvious here the idea that no wallet means no money haven't quite sink in. how to take bus like that??*

you...then suddenly decide to just walk back home to grab ur stuff.
you...get the wallet n keys from mom n cont to walk back the same route to take a cab.
you...get up the cab and starts stoning again.
you...stare at ur bag and to ur horror again, realise ur jacket is missing.
you...call mom to ask her trace back ur route in hope that she'll find the jacket lying somewhere while bracing urself for the worse.

today is just damn SUAY i tell u. SUAY.

matsuda shota, anytime

IKIGAMI

OMG. i randomly surfed youtube n found this trailer!



I've actually read the first few chapter of this manga. story line is interesting BUT a bit heavy so I didn't really continue it BUT omg. movie version.



what's more important is....they have two of my fav guy actors!!! alamak so yandao hahahahhaa


Shota Matsuda and Takayuki Yamada in Ikigami: The Ultimate Limit.

must..get..hold..of..the..movie... (hope it's not crap!)

rain rain... go away?

Many would associate rain with gloomy weather, hence gloomy thoughts.
How many will see it as a form of liberation?

pain in the ass

Planning for a wedding can be such a pain in the ass lol.
hotel bookings, negotiating of packages, bridal studio packages, negotiating of packages, planning of guest list (with sudden heart attacks frm parents), planning.. planning.. planning and all the incessant planning.

good gracious.

thank god, i got the first two out of the way within a month. = =
will now focus on fine-tuning the details.

sitting down with 'Sophia' gave me the bad vibes altho they have nice gowns. seriously. a major rip off. thank god i had some sanity with me to walk out AND not return the next day as well.

stepping into another bridal boutique in bugis area wasn't great either. the gown was alrite. the package was so-so but the album....a big no.

somehow, both times i had my instinct screaming inside my head. i should learn to trust my instinct. when i stepped into Sattine there was a strange good feeling. weird but anyway. all's well since i got my package there. just hope the rest is ok too.

thank goodness iman was with me when i checked out the bridal shops. don't think i can handle the search alone. sigh.

i'm starting to have some funny ideas for my wedding actual day.
let's see how it goes.

music for the soul

although i nearly went crazy trying to upload new songs into my mp3 player (Sony! urgh!) and also update my playlist... but it's amazing how listening to music can be so rejuvenating. like a battery recharge hah! kinda blew away the gloom that has been clouding my mind for quite sometime. even if it's temporary, it's good.

what doesn't break you only makes you stronger

well.. i definitely hope so.
i'm having mixed feelings, mostly negative and i'm back to the worrisome self again.
open my eyes and my worries start. open my eyes and i have to face reality again. open my eyes and the first thing i do is sigh. when will this end?

相遇不是用來生氣的

Saw this interesting email from wilson.
some food for thoughts.


○ο。°相遇不是用來生氣的°。ο○

前日往回家的公車上，
一對上班族男女吸引了我的目光，
而他們的一段對話，更讓人難忘。

每天搭乘公車上下班，來回通勤時間約莫近二小時，
有時人少，可坐在位置上欣賞窗外的風景；
人多時，也只能慢慢地擠回家，
但這時，身邊乘客的對話總會不時地傳到耳邊。

前日往回家的公車上，轉程靠站時，乘客頓時多了起來。
一對上班族男女恰巧在我身邊，吸引了我的目光。

可能因為人多，男的不時地將手臂圍住女的，
並輕聲的問:
「累不累？」
「待會想吃些什麼？」

只見女的不耐煩地回答 :
「我已經夠煩了，吃什麼都還不先決定，每次都要問我。」

男的一臉無辜的低下頭，而後說了令我印象深刻的話。

「讓妳決定是因為希望能夠陪妳吃妳喜歡的東西，
然後看到妳滿足的笑容，
把今天工作的不愉快暫時忘掉。
我的能力不足，
妳工作上所受的委屈我沒法幫妳，
我所能做的也只有這樣。」

女的聽了後，滿懷愧疚的說聲對不起。

男的這才似乎重燃信心般說：
「沒關係，只要你開心就好。」
而後親吻了女的頭髮。

下車前再回頭看看這對情侶，
男的依舊保護著心愛的人。

這樣的情景，
讓我覺得自己今天同樣在工作上有些許不愉快，
如果沒有聽到這一段對話，回家後的我，
可能也是一副全世界都對不起我的臭臉面對心愛的人，
只在乎自己的委屈，
卻忽視對方的感受，
不自覺地傷害最親密的人。

所以在踏進家門時，我問自己，
難道我要像公車上那位女孩一樣忍心
將自己的不滿委屈帶給身旁的人嗎？

不，我想我現在應該做的是...

別再把工作上的情緒發洩在心愛的人身上，
破壞了最親密的關係，
並且主動給自己一個微笑。

相遇，不是用來生氣的！說得真好！

當自己快抓不住情緒時，想想這句話，
應該會讓煩忙的生活，加些微笑的因子吧！

同樣地，在日常生活中，我們牽掛得太多，
我們太在意得失，所以我們的情緒起伏，
我們不快樂。在生氣之際，我們如能多想想︰
「我不是為了生氣而工作的。」
「我不是為了生氣而教書的。」
「我不是為了生氣而交朋友的。」
「我不是為了生氣而作夫妻的。」
「我不是為了生氣而生兒育女的。」
那麼我們會為我們煩惱的心情闢出另一番安詳

看完之後…
當你和朋友..家人爭執時…
要記得你們的相遇…
不是用來生氣的喔…

但...人非聖賢...
誰能不生氣呢…
看了這篇文章以後…
記得.....下次要生氣時…
就別生太久…
免得傷心、傷肝、傷腎又傷腸胃…

antique rings

mom suddenly 'handover' a bunch of her antique jewelleries to me.

O_O"

retro sial.

allergy

what a great way to spend my long weekend.. with a itching butt. ok not exactly THE butt, but somewhere near the butt. like.. the back of my left thigh just under my ass.. give n take an inch or two. yeah. i have 4 red swollen and itching patches that's of the sizes of 50 cents coins each. it's itching the living daylights out of me.

some allergic reaction due to insect bite.

gu found this wicked looking ant like creature crawling on my keys (which is usually in my handbag). he torched it and left the corpse behind for me to vet. he thought it was some kinda red ant but i doubt so cos it doesnt look like one. it's just some.. weird nasty looking ant like thing.

i'm not exactly sure if it's the one that bit me but...HECK IT MAN. I'VE GOT BITTEN ANYWAY DAMNIT!

my mom kinda freaked out when i showed her my patches. - -"

i probably had those bit marks on sat morn and it kinda worsened. it started off looking like mosquito bites then it escalated into swollen reddish patches.

went down to babu but i don't know why, he is not open. damn. then had to go to another clinic and the doc simply gave me some meds and cream to apply. i fished out my medic card to check if it's under the panel of docs my company has insurance for. nurse say NO but guess what!? the clinic is under my panel of doctors lor. ta ma de.

anyway, how am i feeling nowadays?
sleepy. restless. lethargic.
what else? nothing else i guess.
just not in the mood for anything much.
stuff happening at home that started off as something pretty petty is escalating to a point of being ridulous. i could almost consider it a family crisis just that the nature of the conflict is kinda stupid. but you can't just call your parents (whichever one it is) stupid right? so how? how i react to the matter is simply being rather non-chalent about it. not that i wanna appear cold and uncaring. i just don't really know how on earth to deal with it. gu n i is just trying to stay sane and help mom stay sane too. sigh.